Dear Diary: Day 365

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Empty white space.

That’s all I see trying to write this. I’ve been here for several minutes staring at the blank space, as though forces unseen are in control of my fingers, preventing me from striking a letter.

But I dared them already. You see, I struck the first letter D.

I don’t exactly know where to start, but looking back at the several lines so far I think I have started.

It’s the last day of the year; lots of days since I did something like this. This won’t be a transcript of a 365-day journey, but you’ll get the point. I hope so.

I apologize for my inconsistencies and fizzling on the blog this year. I got the WordPress annual report for the year and I was ashamed! I mysteriously grew a thick skin to post notifications of blogs I follow; erstwhile constant reminders of my inactivity on the blogosphere. Regardless of the fact that I wrote more this year like I set out to, I had to choose between blogging and another form of writing. It was a Hobson’s choice and I had to go all the way with the latter. It dawned on me that I miss the wonderful readers and their comments, more than I miss writing on the blog itself.

Speaking of the blog and awesome readers, I almost lost one―not to death―around the last quarter of the year. I got so carried away with “things” that I became unaware I was passing the wrong clues. The proverbial blow that broke the camel’s back was a strange attitude, or rather, negligence that became a part of me under the guise of being busy. I would miss calls, get pings and texts and then promise to respond when I’m free, only for me to get the freedom and never fulfill my promise. I automatically got sobriquets with “pride” as root-word from some, and a surgical unfriending and unfollowing from others. I blame no one else but me. That wasn’t my real face o, and I am sincerely sorry. I learnt my lesson and I know it won’t recur.

The year came and went so quickly (I remember the first few days of the year like they weren’t so far away), but that’s just an illusion informed by how great or otherwise the year has been for respective individuals. Mine was nimble-toed because despite the little bumps, it was a smooth ride: no accidents, hospital admissions, unfortunate events even in strange lands, etc. Many thanks to the Gracious God for life and for the gifts and privileges, even though we often classify them into categories of basic/general/simple blessings and major/customised blessings; usually taking the former for granted. Sometimes when we have a piece of a thing we ask why we don’t have a truck full instead, despite the efforts we put in. Surprisingly, we usually forget that breathing for just another day automatically qualifies us for greater things.

I’m grateful for my friends, colleagues and family; their micro soft words of encouragement and punchy power points that nudge one to excellence. Life would appear in monochrome without them, I’m sure of that.

I did things I never thought I could do or be trusted with at the time this year. The saying that we don’t know how much we can do until we’re thrown to the deep end held true for me, and I appreciate the opportunities. Borrowing an expression from a blogger friend, Monsieur Kingsley, you never really know how long you can hold on until you find yourself dangling between the devil―or the blue sky―and the red soil.

I was constantly reminded this year that I have grown and qualified for some feats and milestones; but the year also reiterated the fact that there are no strict rules, and that being ready to pick up the mantle is a great prerequisite to shouldering responsibilities. I have not leaped, but I have moved and I am thankful for the pace and the many lessons therein.

Contrary to the opinion of some friends, and their attempts to convince me otherwise, this year buttressed the fact there are no straight answers to most questions. Many opinions/ideologies will not withstand 365 days split to three, and obvious can sometimes double as oblivious. The lady/gentleman that got you humming Titanic’s theme song at first sight may turn out to be a zonkey and the end of you. A simple answer to a seemingly simple question can haunt you for a year or for the rest of your days. You can hate and then love a thing within a month, and the shift will be lost on you. Sometimes, there is a third option after yes and no, and it’s your prerogative to state what it is. Think hard before you make major decisions and say huge pronouncements. Matter of fact, never say never!

Among other things, this year has taught me that:

  • opportunities can find you in boxers and no shirts, when you least expect one;
  • love can creep up on you at any time or place (cupid won’t send you a memo);
  • you’ll always find a flaw if you won’t stop scrutinizing;
  • things can go all the way down south even when you think you’ve got it all figured; and
  • death can knock on anyone’s door; keeping it locked out won’t be an option.

I don’t have a list of strict to-dos or resolutions, as people are wont to draw one at this time of the year. I’m aware that there are lots of things to do and improve on, but I will take things easy, one step at a time, poco a poco. I will enjoy life, laugh out loud, get down to business and ditch the cutlery sometimes, cry if the movie/story is too touching/emotional and laugh at the cry-cry chicken, keep 69 as my favorite number combo even if the world finds it mundane, try new things… live, love and learn.

Thanks for a great 2015.

2016_Happy New Year (SJB)
Bonne année! Bonne santé!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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7 thoughts on “Dear Diary: Day 365

    Depearl said:
    December 31, 2015 at 4:47 pm

    Yes! Uncle Joe waltz finds time for us at last, at the end of 365 days.

    Ok, I’ve always known we share some certain interests, that number, well, it’s hard not to make it a favorite.

    The penultimate paragraph did it entirely for me. My proverbial nail in the coffin! I concur, things are fickle and ultimately prone to changes.

    I missed reading here, I learn new things and this is like making up for lost time, or not quite, I’ve not forgiven your absence.

    Selamat tahun baru!!!

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      Adewoyin Joseph responded:
      January 1, 2016 at 7:13 am

      I waited till the first day of the year to reply ‘cuz I believe you’ll be nice and more forgiving now (maybe I should send my bank account details as well).

      The number combo your favorite one too? I suspect you, but I won’t judge. 🙂

      I miss having you here bruvv. Thanks for being there.

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        Depearl said:
        January 1, 2016 at 1:24 pm

        Lmao! Ok, all is forgiven, new year and all. 😝
        You’re welcome boss!

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    Yemie said:
    January 1, 2016 at 12:42 am

    Tis great seeing you on these plains Joe and on what’s the last day of the year! Coincidence or more by design than accidental?! 😈😆

    Your musing I find prettty arresting, depicting life, as we know it! We all have tales to tell, as we all should and in this game of life, the highs and lows can leave us very disorientated but we continue on still; taking each day in our stride and trying our hardest to get past whatever life throws our way! Even as the world around us begins to crash and tumble down; we try to keep our hopes alive, for oft times; when things are seemingly falling apart, somehow; or shall I say eventually, they have a way of falling back into place! With the breath of life still in us and God on our side…we shall definitely overcome! 😊😄

    Happy ’16 Jojo! I wish you a very wonderful year and God’s speed in every of your endeavors! Soar on up high, and keep on rocking….steady! Shalom! 😇❤😄

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      Adewoyin Joseph responded:
      January 1, 2016 at 7:30 am

      I guess I’ll settle for “co-ccidental”. I really won’t feel right letting 2015 roll by without another post. I reconnected with the fairies and ojuju Calabar and made them wave their wands and pankere, respectively.

      Thanks a lot for 2015. 2016 will be fruitful, and your expectations will not be cut short. You’ll be blessed till the blessed scream “Haba! Baba why her?”.

      Same goes to everyone under the sound of my voice. (E no bad if I form Pastor Joe for a day at least, shebi?) 🙂

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    Xceptional43 said:
    January 30, 2016 at 7:08 pm

    I’m grateful for my friends, colleagues and family; their micro soft words of encouragement and punchy power points that nudge one to excellence. Life would appear in monochrome without them, I’m sure of that.

    I enjoyed reading this and the paragraph above did much. A very excellent read.
    Here is to a better 2016….

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      Adewoyin Joseph responded:
      January 30, 2016 at 8:50 pm

      Thanks a lot for stopping by sir, it means a lot.

      Cheers to a great 2016! Taking from your lines, we won’t shrink… cuz we just might fly. 🙂

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